Okay, so for the past several months I have felt like God has shown me that my mouth gets in the way of what He is trying to develop inside of me & it never really gets the chance to fully develop.
I am a teacher and once I learn something I want to teach it to someone else. I can hardly keep my mouth shut and when I try, I feel physically uncomfortable. Like, when I am in a group and I feel like I have a nugget to share and I try to keep my mouth shut my heart will start racing and I may even start sweating. Psycho teacher, huh? I had a playdate with an amazing girl yesterday who has the very same difficulty. She put it into words for me and it was a yet another confirmation that what I have been hearing from God lately is that I need to shut my mouth until what I am learning is firmly planted in my heart.
My tendency is to read half a book or do half of a bible study and then run with it in my mind and out of my mouth prematurely. I will think I have gotten the main point, and I just want to share it while it is fresh. BUT, sometimes in my haste the message not able to produce the fruit in my life that it should.
{{And even after all that I wrote above I just wrote 3 paragraphs about what He is teaching me right now...and then deleted them...I am so stubborn. I will simply say that this is a season of developing the longing for wisdom and discernment in my life. In order to do this I need to open my ears and eyes and fill them with His Word, not my own words.}}
